10:54 P.M.

At least I'm only bruised, not broken ​Although my emotional world feels like it's crashing down I have friends, people, acquaintances But how in the hell do you explain to them what you're going through How long can one fake a smile, force a hug How long doe the pain last? Do the nagging, undesirable thoughts ever fade? Ever leave for good. It's like one hour I'm okay, the next tears stream down my face. I despise living a lie, trying to hide. (I guess I'll slowly open up) These are very real emotions. These are valid emotions. I am a human who will express them. My mind racing faster than a Nascar. My heart beating stronger than a kick drum. ​What is wrong with me? Who even am I anymore? Why can't I just be normal. I don't even recognize myself. I feel out of my body, I've gone elsewhere. Why can't people understand? HELL I CAN"T EVEN UNDERSTAND. Why do they run? Why do they act like I'm crazy. Hell maybe I am. But right now I'm struggling, I hurting, I'm confused. But again, I'm only bruised.