If it's not okay, it's not the end

I've been meaning to get back to leisure writing. In fact, I think I have needed it. I'll open my desk drawer enough to see my journal, than shut it. I will think about this blog but close my computer. It's like I'm avoiding what I need most. I am seeing that with a few other things in life right now.

I'll think about different things that I need to or want to do and kind of brush them off. It's frustrating because I know what I am capable of, but just feel like I can't get done what I want. There's just not that drive that I once had.

I am not too worried because I've felt this way before and gotten out of it, most times in better shape than I could have imagined. But for the time being, it's hard. It's hard for me and those around me because I know damn well I'm not giving one hundred percent, not even near eighty some days.

But good news, I am realizing this and will do my best to get to the other side again, because I know it's there, and I know it's good. It's more than good.

I was just listening to a podcast (which inspired this post) and paused it shortly after this message, "If it's not okay, it's not the end." So here's to the end being nowhere near, and a bigger and better tomorrow, or day that is coming soon.

Keep trying, keep waking up and doing something each day. Keep smiling, keep feeling the sun on your face, keep noticing the little things. Some days it's just baby steps and that is okay. Give yourself time and grace.

Deep down we're gentle, fragile beings that just need love and support. I know I've had my moments of "toughness." But at my most vulnerable states, all I want is a little love and nudge of support.

We will keep working toward a better me, therefor we. I believe in you.

-E